Where did my old life go to

Came across an article awhile back about a mummy saying she missed her pre-kids life .. sometimes i feel the same.. while we lay on the same bed, me at the foot and hubby at the head, i wonder where did all those hugs, kisses and snuggles go..  i didnt want a big age gap between our kids so we actively tried for #2 as JE was turning one. After a few disappointed pee sticks, a horrible backache that had me limping somehow confirmed the start of my pregnancy. From an eventful pregnancy that had me puking my guts and leaking my bottoms, came JY. Actually, pregnancy woes are just the beginning of a long journey to come.

The first 2 months had me more weeping and staring depressingly out the window during middle of the night hourly feeds for that hungry little boy that will scream the house down and wake his sister up if i didnt latch him fast enough. I miss my bed, i told hubby occasionally, having been invaded by my wiggling daughter who kicks her snoring dad in the face during excited dreams. I've settled for sleeping at the foot of the bed and leaving her huddled between the bedframe n bed rail, so as to prevent her from rolling down the bed while we all snooze.. after at least sudden thuds n loud cries between dark and dawn.. i also miss my ME time, to be able to go out to do my own thing without feeling the need to rush home to relieve my babies'caregivers of their duties..

JY is now 6 months plus, and we get by shuttling between work and home. Occasionally, we date and drop the phones and nagginess behind.  To forget that we are a couple first and foremost can be dangerous, since busying ourselves sorely around the children and work threatens the sanctity of the family nucleus.

But well, people have gotten by surviving their brood since stone age like that.. grandfathers with their two wives and dozens of offsprings. Its the modern distractions that cause us to loosen our familial ties that have binded people together.. so sometimes both of us nag each other, have rants that go one ear in and out the other, but still kiss and make up each night or the day after..

I often tell my friends now, dont wait too long to have kids or you will lament the insufficient energy to chase after those little sprinters.. have them close together so as to grit and get it over.. there will be lots of tears of joy and sadness.. but hearing that sweet little "mummy 我爱你...” is so worth it..