Happe New Year!! And so??

It was Xmas last week and we ushered in the start of a new year today. But it marked no difference for me since im a "new" mum still under confinement and subjected to milking and diapering demands of my lil boy just a couple of days shy of his full month..

Hubby settled our elder gal to bed from 10 plus while was changing and nursing the boy, and nursing and changing again.. 😥 around 11 i heard grandma watching the countdown on Channel 5, and went out at around 1130pm to watch the show for awhile while patting the lil one in my arms as he was grunting a lil.. it provided a lil festive atmosphere but that's all.. about 15 - 20 minutes later i went back into the room and put baby into bed, and hubby massaged my aching back.. he suddenly said "Happy New Year laopo", and my reply was "Oh, it's midnight already?"

How unremarkable, unromantic of ushering in the new year, but as parents to a newborn and toddler, there's not much difference to festivals right now.. it doesn't mean i could sleep a lil lofer before baby's next milk feed and diaper changing round.. In fact, the lil boy was feeding, pooing, peeing, feeding, pooing, staining his blankets and requiring my patting from 0230 - 0430!! I was hunching over my nursing child and staring out the window at the splattering rain, wondering when i could lie down and sleep again. I made formula milk at 3plus thinking my breast milk was insufficient and hunger kept him up but he didn't want the milk.. i burped him unsuccessfully and latched again, patted him around the room, kicked myself against his bed, and put him into the sling and patted him around the room, watching taxis and cars zoom by on the road below.. finally he slept and i could too..

I hope it irons out soon in 2-3 weeks time so that I'm more upbeat when it's Chinese New Year, as i dont wanna look like a panda in pictures then...